Baa i hate life. everthing gos up hill then back down. lifes like a mother fuckn roller coaster ride. i finnaly get cool with my dad now my boyfreinds mad at me. i have no idea why but i realy dont care. i should just be single annd freindless so i can killmyself. tj's girrlfreinds mad at me cuz shes a cunt. n if myspace were working ide be on there geting on the but this compter dont allow it. so yeah sucks. cant wait to tommrow to go back home n get away from this drama. i sumtimes just wanna end this misery on life. it seems everthing i say and do is wrong anymore. i dont no why it just dose. i havent posted in a while but evertime i do i seem depressed. well i guess thats what im saying. im depressed. even tho i hate admiting it. i am. i am depressed. lifes a buncha shit that i just cant take ne more. its like its the imposbile to do right. i love my freinds and my family but gosh is there really only one way out? i need to find sumone who loves me just enuff to just run away with me. leaving drama behinde. new life sounds so good right now. kinda hurts and makes me wanna cry to say to leave these pple behind but. its all drama. and the way my dads been lightly i dont wanna leave him here. but maby in the future i can come back n eat it. but for the time i just need to fine that somone who just cant take life anymore and sumone who loves me enuff to restart this life. leaving all the pain, drama, and bulshit in ohio. start a future and leave to past behind. come back n cry bout it later. n fix it. but im to weak to stick with it.
lifes a buncha shit.
ya know?

so i went to a concert and mush i say it was great.
umm going back to school soon. monday i think.
birthdays next mounth.
with all this going on i should be happy right?
well im not. i miss someone to much.....
comment if you want...

well i got my enet back up. and umm...hmm...been doing ok umm...going to a concerte tommrow so yeahh cant wait. lol. thats bout it. ok love you much.

bored. hehe. dont no what to right. well i guess ill be back later and get on. sis bitching. bbl.

i cant wait till i find m usb cord or by a new one so i can have enet at home. so yep no enet there. soon pple soon. other than that lets see the docs dont got the resaults back so i still dont no whats wrong with me. hmm lets seee im at sussans g-pas right now. its ok. boring bouts to go home. yep. well im going go love you.

well im siting here at a freinds. im having so much fun. oh my god. i miss all these freinds again. hehe. im so happy i get to see all of them again. now i have to go to church to see the rest.(none have car or are in walking distance.) so yeah. i love it. im going back to the in-laws either tommrow or wedsday night. (after shitty relgious bullshit kinda church.) sry ive changed alot religon can be blown outa my ass. lol. theres no point ne more. but yeah my bro found out. and he was pissed yet ok cuz dad explained to him josh is a gental man. hehehe. yep. life has been fun. i love it. now anyway.
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im a dork.
and as asley says...
"Yes but your my dorky bitch!"

today was fun lol i went to the lake nad just chilled. then got here and just chillin theses days at drakes have been the best of my life. i dont want to leave. lol. hehehe. i love it here. theres barrly no stress. and im not pregers. lol. im sooo happy. i feel like jumping into a relationship with this one dude but ill just take it slooooow. yay. lol. so yep. dads on off moody. i love him to death. you no but i just got to chill here till he realy wants me back there and promise to never hurt me like that again. but i forgive him cuz i love him. hehehe. so yep. GOING GO...later.

so anyway im bored. im at drakes n going home thursay thats if josh pics me up. i hope it says im not pregnant cuz i dont need that. i probaly got cancer. lol. haha. jk. blahhh so yeah just hope shit gos down ok there. hmm what else is new? ummm the babys are doing good. pain in the ass but i love them. ummmmmmm
thats bout it. if you wanna see my recent journal just go to myspace. n serch my email. its gothickchick1025@netscape.net or just serch my url www.myspace.com/fallenagain666 lol. so yep. ok well im going go cuz everones picking on me N i need to beat there sry ass's hehehhehe. peace out.

blahh blahh blahh. family crsit never grows old. wow we. mmhmm. yep. well i dunno just boreed. had a werid day. well ttyl. byes.

lots of shit. lets see robbies gone dunno if its for good. kathy to. ummm ben and becca broke up. ive been to depreseed and dont like church ne more. i got to see my brother in tears today cuz hes hurt by me. yeah whatever. im hurt by him to. so thats a buncha shit one ear out the other cuz i no hes hurt by the way ive changed well let me tell him a lil somthing im hurt by the way he treats me i dont even feel like his damn sister anymore. then theres denise same feeling. dads just geting worse. and it scares me. even tho we have our argunments i love him and dont wanna lose him. dont think im passing this year. im trying my damnist but its just sooo damn hard. and my other family is just being syko. i had to leave today i counldnt bare it there another nite. tj cuting him self susan cry tammy and tab screaming at each other nad amanda just siting there telling everone to stfu. gaww confussing. i hate life. well any way. other than that. thinks have been mm...depreseing. like always. peace out homie.